I have become a Christian.
I'm gonna get a lot of bullshit from this and I know it. Screw you and shut up! Don't kill yourself on purpose trying to understand this though!
And I hope Iím the most positive person youíve ever met. If not I canít do anything about that.
Spread the word since it will automatically happen anyway. Ah, well...
My frustration level is now complete X level.
I will post something about myself after I've found all my own answers. Even though you probably know a lot of about me already. Iíve also found out that my nickname should be ĎCasino or AKAí and my lucky number is 23.
Even though believe it or not I sometimes pronounce it as 32 when I think about it in a lucky way.
I feel like a fool now. Itís like the returning sensation of being a quarterback or something. My personality is like this:
Brian Laudrup, Totti, Elkjśr and strangely enough that Bridget from the show 'Simple Rules'. I always get so bloody overprotected about every single move I make. But that could be because I have a habit of litterally walking into walls if you know what I mean. I also sleep so violently I had destroyed my Bayern Munich poster even more.
All the Valencia posters I try to put up all goes down like a bird after one night's sleep for some reason.
I've also returned to freezing like hell again. I'm the kind of person who doesn't take the happiness in advance though so we'll see if I have a backlash in my headache again soon. But it seems unlikely...
I need to go buy a mascot now. Iím stressed about which one I should get but it should be possible for even me to find one I like. All I can reveal is: IT WILL NOT BE A SNAKE!!
The snake one symboling the link between Inter and snakes in real life works like hexia de Trix. Like a spell. We can cure the spell by replacing it with a mascot worthy of Inter so I decided to do so.
After I buy that I can finally relax about Inter. Then I will know we will soon win Scudetto again. So I better find it God damn fast so it can spray luck on this season too. But thatís only a big fat maybe because Iím taking the decision to aqquire it in the middle of the season. It will only work for sure from the beginning of the next season.
The answer to the question was that I've been mindnumbingly stupid previously in my life. I always knew in some fashion that God exists. I can't explain you why and somehow I have always believed in God. It has just taken me concrete proff and I got it now. Hence calling me socalled ďreborn ChristianĒ would be a misunderstanding in my case! That is vital to understand. Letís hope you will understand that.
And it has taken me 13 years to get this in my fucking head. Can you believe it? Thatís 13 years of denial, ladys and gentlemen! This is such a relief. Redemption feels like nirvana. I finally feel like Retief goosen like Bush puts itís so perfectly! You have to witness it yourself to believe, I think. Until God shows his true face on you I can understand if you think Iím crazy. He litterally showed me with evidence in his face on me. Now I feel I have 100% proof to myself he/she/it exists.
I heard God talk to me. And he has decided to heal me of my constant 2 year long headache. That is proof enough for me that a God exists which had the power to perform a miracle. God totally rules!
Even though I can of course not understand what hell it is or means before Iíve been on the golf course again and again.
I might even have been possesed by something too during my life like another soul or something! Because I've been acting weird all my life. I feel like Iíve woken up from a bad dream. Iíve denied my destiny. Which there is no reason to do. Perhaps now I can change it??? That is a perfectly great explanation for that and it is not for change. I wonít accept any other ideas of different Godís at all but I respect you if you believe in other Gods. If you donít believe at all I can tell you straight to your face: OMG. He really exists!
I like to be entertained. That is a part of my character so donít be offended if I seem to laugh about the smallest things. Laugh with me instead.
I'm gonna need confirmation on all my answers to life with a priest though. That ought to be informative.
I predict you will see me wearing crosses but we'll see about that...
I will never turn my back on my Faith. I'm not a quitter. I will always believe in God.
I have reached a new level of counsciousness, guys. Itís like being on the other side.
Now you're sitting stunned. I hope I didnít take your breath away... (rollani)
Take a minute or two to think for yourselves and make yourself a coffee or something.
The majority of the time Iíve had Internet Iíve had constant headache. I remember that as 4 years and correct me if Iím wrong.. I hope this will help you understand me better. If not... I basically couldnít care less since I am stone cold convinced God exists. I won't even hear discussion that God doesn't exist, I on the other hand will do my best to understand you non-believers from now on.
I can't even name the odd personality of myself with headache for so long myself. I feel like that rapper Eminem in this sense. I simply can't explain it...
I will be so busy tomorrow. I need something to calm to calm down my excitement now... Thank God I have a lot cognac at my hand. I feel like Mulder now and that needs celebration. I need to know all the answers now!
This was more than 800 letters, or was it? Take it or leave it! (b)
I feel like a sportsman that has gone on pension or sumthing weird. (laughs at him self)
Bloody hell! I'm gonna go golf and odds forever now until I can show my face again. I better hope the reading was worth reading!
Donít jump on me now with questions though! But if you canít resist the temptation feel free to do so if you can manage it in respect... This has been the most mind boggling and revolving experience ever in my life. It changes your perspective.
Before I thought I was doomed to failure which I blame on Inter's poor mascot. Now I realized I simply need to change it.
I can only find my answers in the golf course anyway. (blink
Bye for now for those who had the decency to read my words clearly..
See you soon when I've found myself again.