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[Gismo]

I have become a Christian.

I'm gonna get a lot of bullshit from this and I know it. Screw you and shut up! Don't kill yourself on purpose trying to understand this though!

And I hope I’m the most positive person you’ve ever met. If not I can’t do anything about that.

Spread the word since it will automatically happen anyway. Ah, well...

My frustration level is now complete X level.

I will post something about myself after I've found all my own answers. Even though you probably know a lot of about me already. I’ve also found out that my nickname should be ‘Casino or AKA’ and my lucky number is 23.

Even though believe it or not I sometimes pronounce it as 32 when I think about it in a lucky way.

I feel like a fool now. It’s like the returning sensation of being a quarterback or something. My personality is like this:

Brian Laudrup, Totti, Elkjær and strangely enough that Bridget from the show 'Simple Rules'. I always get so bloody overprotected about every single move I make. But that could be because I have a habit of litterally walking into walls if you know what I mean. I also sleep so violently I had destroyed my Bayern Munich poster even more.

All the Valencia posters I try to put up all goes down like a bird after one night's sleep for some reason.

I've also returned to freezing like hell again. I'm the kind of person who doesn't take the happiness in advance though so we'll see if I have a backlash in my headache again soon. But it seems unlikely...

I need to go buy a mascot now. I’m stressed about which one I should get but it should be possible for even me to find one I like. All I can reveal is: IT WILL NOT BE A SNAKE!!

The snake one symboling the link between Inter and snakes in real life works like hexia de Trix. Like a spell. We can cure the spell by replacing it with a mascot worthy of Inter so I decided to do so.

After I buy that I can finally relax about Inter. Then I will know we will soon win Scudetto again. So I better find it God damn fast so it can spray luck on this season too. But that’s only a big fat maybe because I’m taking the decision to aqquire it in the middle of the season. It will only work for sure from the beginning of the next season.

The answer to the question was that I've been mindnumbingly stupid previously in my life. I always knew in some fashion that God exists. I can't explain you why and somehow I have always believed in God. It has just taken me concrete proff and I got it now. Hence calling me socalled “reborn Christian” would be a misunderstanding in my case! That is vital to understand. Let’s hope you will understand that.

And it has taken me 13 years to get this in my fucking head. Can you believe it? That’s 13 years of denial, ladys and gentlemen! This is such a relief. Redemption feels like nirvana. I finally feel like Retief goosen like Bush puts it’s so perfectly! You have to witness it yourself to believe, I think. Until God shows his true face on you I can understand if you think I’m crazy. He litterally showed me with evidence in his face on me. Now I feel I have 100% proof to myself he/she/it exists.

I heard God talk to me. And he has decided to heal me of my constant 2 year long headache. That is proof enough for me that a God exists which had the power to perform a miracle. God totally rules!

Even though I can of course not understand what hell it is or means before I’ve been on the golf course again and again.

I might even have been possesed by something too during my life like another soul or something! Because I've been acting weird all my life. I feel like I’ve woken up from a bad dream. I’ve denied my destiny. Which there is no reason to do. Perhaps now I can change it??? That is a perfectly great explanation for that and it is not for change. I won’t accept any other ideas of different God’s at all but I respect you if you believe in other Gods. If you don’t believe at all I can tell you straight to your face: OMG. He really exists!

I like to be entertained. That is a part of my character so don’t be offended if I seem to laugh about the smallest things. Laugh with me instead.

I'm gonna need confirmation on all my answers to life with a priest though. That ought to be informative.

I predict you will see me wearing crosses but we'll see about that...

I will never turn my back on my Faith. I'm not a quitter. I will always believe in God.

I have reached a new level of counsciousness, guys. It’s like being on the other side.

Now you're sitting stunned. I hope I didn’t take your breath away... (rollani)

Take a minute or two to think for yourselves and make yourself a coffee or something.

The majority of the time I’ve had Internet I’ve had constant headache. I remember that as 4 years and correct me if I’m wrong.. I hope this will help you understand me better. If not... I basically couldn’t care less since I am stone cold convinced God exists. I won't even hear discussion that God doesn't exist, I on the other hand will do my best to understand you non-believers from now on.

I can't even name the odd personality of myself with headache for so long myself. I feel like that rapper Eminem in this sense. I simply can't explain it...

I will be so busy tomorrow. I need something to calm to calm down my excitement now... Thank God I have a lot cognac at my hand. I feel like Mulder now and that needs celebration. I need to know all the answers now!

This was more than 800 letters, or was it? Take it or leave it! (b)

I feel like a sportsman that has gone on pension or sumthing weird. (laughs at him self) :dielaugh:

Bloody hell! I'm gonna go golf and odds forever now until I can show my face again. I better hope the reading was worth reading!

Don’t jump on me now with questions though! But if you can’t resist the temptation feel free to do so if you can manage it in respect... This has been the most mind boggling and revolving experience ever in my life. It changes your perspective.

Before I thought I was doomed to failure which I blame on Inter's poor mascot. Now I realized I simply need to change it.

I can only find my answers in the golf course anyway. (blink

Bye for now for those who had the decency to read my words clearly..

See you soon when I've found myself again.

 

[Gismo]

Focus on the positive. Whenever I decide to bring a mascot, I believe it or not, bring luck.

 

[Hammoudi]

Well Gismo, you have been acting differntly as of late. This new confession explains it. I believe that you are undergoing what the great psychologist Erik Erikson called 'identity crisis'.

Anyway, as a believer in God, I think that you are on the right path. I feel that God exists but I can't give you a physical evidence that he does. So, Good Luck in your new adventure.

 

[Ari]

See you soon mate.

 

[Miki]

Gismo, it's not just the cognac is it? Have you really changed?

Ciao,
Tim

 

[Gismo]

I had thought it was the cognac yesterday becuause I had my usual morning drinking (don't worry, it's very small). But it is not.

Today my faith is even stronger. I antizate myself to be what I call 'weird' Christian. I'm gonna be wanting too much from God in the prayers. And I can't remember much of the bible either even if I tried my very best in those classes. Perhaps I should buy it or something if that's possible...

But yes, what happened to me was so rividing one could think I went Christian because of that. But really I feel like I've just denied it for 13 years. You see, in kinderkarden the thought of an existing God immediately without doubt struk my mind out of no where. The next TOO long I denied myself the opportunity because I thought it was too good to be true. Before I saw the world as a cold dark place with heartless people. Now I see warmth so clearly. I just couldn't see it before and I seeked concrete evidence to confirm it.

Plus I was shown the miracle in person which I had asked for as evidence. God is a good storyteller too! :thumbsup:

Hope that satisfies your questions because I'm on Mulder level 2000 already this day and I haven't had my morning cognac. It's 1119 here so I need to hurry! After that I'm off for the golf course with my new warhero golf jacket that's gonna bring my game up to new levels. You heard me right, my grandfather was a God damn marine soldier and he gave me his jacket!!! I can't alllow myself to misplace that jacket. If I manage to misplace that jacket (stressed), it's a big responsibility.

So now you have a picture of how I pic cloth too. The war jacket or anything else I have will go. But if I turn out to look cool on the day? Fine.

 

[Ronald]

Good luck Alex! God does exist! but I stlll don't get why you thought god heald you or something? anyway good luck on this break through in your life! we're all searching for it I guess! well at least some
of us!

 

[Gismo]

It all happened on Easter Thursday, the healing that is. I had another pre-religious awakening on the eve of Christmas too last year. That's two 'coincidences' I can't deny + I heard God actually TALK to me. How can I explain this... In a meditative state of mind.

It's like having seen an UFO. You need to SEE, to believe. Or at least many do.

 

[Ronald]

You were in a meditative state?

 

[Gismo]

Thanx for the welcome into the new 'world', guys. :thumbsup:

And yes I went into a sorta link to the understanding of the universe - a channel. There I heard something speak to me - God.

I have finally become a sensei. My meditative skills have been taking to a new level. And since that level was 0 before, I'm on step 1 now.

 

[Ronald]

Oh! I see! so you communicated with the source of ultimate power aka god through your meditative state! nice! :star:

it's a well known fact that you can actually access god through your brain, since god is inside all creatures! everyone of us has god inside of him! but too few know how to communicate with it! with all the distractions of the modern world!

 

[Gismo]

it's a well known fact that you can actually access god through your brain, since god is inside all creatures! everyone of us has god inside of him! but too few know how to communicate with it! with all the distractions of the modern world!

That's a level 2 sensei. I will be damned if I reach that. I basically don't want to but it could even happen.

 

[Gismo]

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I have forgotten how to use this URL feauture but I hope it turned out.

I want to get my hands on one of these.

 

[scutzon]

I'm not trying to be sarcastic, or cynical or anything...

But I don't get you...

 

[Gismo]

I understand everyone who doesn't get me. It's impossible to understand a miracle before it happens to yourself.

Now I've waited for my driver to the golf course for so long now. I need to golf constantly the next up to 3 months and I can't get started today.

Ah well, I suppose there is also a day tomorrow. But I'm impatient like hell. It's spring season and I need to get started now so they will allow me into the putting training.

And now I've found the problem with the driver. It's the bloody mechanic that is taking too bloody long. :stress::wallbang:

I'll have to stay at home for myself and wonder like crazy without answers then. What a nightmare!

 

[snake]

so how does te golf fit in?

 

[Hammoudi]

Gismo, I am really finding your statements kind of confusing. Separate the golf and the 'new born' and talk about each separately. I enjoyed reading about your identity crisis, but then the golf stuff really threw me off!

Also, you have a driver!

 

[Gismo]

so how does te golf fit in?

I'm on handicap 48 and I will kill myself in frustration if I doesn´t reach 30 come August. When I reach 30 golf will be 5 times more fun for me and I will have fulfilled my potential so I can enjoy the sport so much more.

Hamed, I bully my dad into driving me. I will never get a driver's licence to a car so I have to make people drive me.

Golf is the perfect place to find answers in your life. Now it´s spring and I want to find them for after I turned Christian.

Furthermore Hamed. I think golf would be the perfect sport for you.

 

[Frisko]

I join scuzton in a state of total confusion. I read your first long post Alex and really if it was written in Chinese I would have had more chances to get some sense out of it.

From reading all of the thread I gather that you had some kind of revelation and that you have found God again? I hope this is right.

Anyway, you're happy about this whole thing so it's great news. I hope I will understand more in the future.

 

[Hammoudi]

Hamed, I bully my dad into driving me. I will never get a driver's licence to a car so I have to make people drive me.

Golf is the perfect place to find answers in your life. Now it´s spring and I want to find them for after I turned Christian.

Furthermore Hamed. I think golf would be the perfect sport for you.

All right, I see the connection there. Golf gives you some kind of solitude where you can do some reflections away from the crowdedness of the urban life, besides you will be with nature.

I wish I know how to golf because it seems to be fun. I don't know how to count handicaps or to calculate scores and what is an eagle, birdie etc. It would be good if you give me a crash course !